Early Morning and Re-evaluations

Today is a Monday. Everyone (well most people) get up early and go to work. Drew is no exception to this. Because she gets up early and goes to work I usually wake up as well, to pack her lunch. Unless I had no sleep the night before (which for me is more common than not) I am a cheerful, happy, sweet boyfriend and pack her lunch.

I enjoy (for the most part) our life together. Of course there are things that get each other, things that annoy us about each other. But, for the most part, things are wonderful. Today I made drew a ham and (mostly) cheese sandwich, a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for her bus ride, and I put some soup in a Tupperware for her.

The thing that has been the biggest problem between the two of us is my current stagnation. I am trying to finish my internship at SCCtv, and so far I have only recieved 8 hours of the original 45 hours I had left before my shoulder injury.

To add on top of the internship problem there are other issues that exasperate the situation. I have been in a state of creative stagnation, which has added to being depressed, and on top of that my anxiety disorder has been acting up worse than ever before. And more than that I make no money at the Red Lion. Yeah. I feel like a looser, a bit.

So, the other night we had a chat about everything that had been bugging us and things that we wanted to change and it was good. One of those relationship re-evaluations. I feel like I have some more direction now, which is refreshing. I also feel like we have opened communications back open. It's hard living with someone, even a person you love completely, but it is worth it.

Now on to more boring and asinine things. It's about 8:30 in the morning right now and I've been watching "Nick Cannon Wild n' Out" an "improv comedy" show where celebrities battle each other by making jokes and insulting people. The thing about this show is that it can be funny, when funny ass people are on it. I saw one episode with Kat Williams and another with Andy Milonakis. However, most of the episodes have people I have never heard of on and they suck.

It makes me feel old. I am no longer a target audience for Mtv. Jesus. I'm 24 years old! For Christ's sake! Yet, I feel more and more out of this loop than ever before. Even when I talk to people in my peer group I feel out of the loop. They talk about music I have never heard (nor do I really want to) and movies I find trivial. Maybe I am an elitist or a snob or maybe I just have better taste than most people. Maybe I'm out of the loop because I filter out the bullshit better than most people my age. I think that Drew possesses this as well, better than me in fact, as she manages to stay in the loop but still filter crap. How? I have no idea. I guess that is just part of her magic.